All along you wanted him
You were a smooth operator
I waited for you to come clean
Why would you want him?
When you knew I loved him
You left me to find out the hard way
did you think I wouldn’t find out eventually?
You had a whole lot to choose from
He had me and still went further with you
I quit trying to rationalize, not worth it
Just that I had to find out the ugliest way
You weren’t willing to let me know
And he wasn’t man enough
Your silence was intentional
To drive the knife in way deep
To make the pain deep as to leave me breathless
I wonder, but then I have myself to blame
warned, but I chose not to listen
I trusted you with my whole being
ignored the signs and lies,
The secret visits and text messages,
I chose to trust you, my bosom friend
I did, because, I saw only the good in you
After all, I have known you throughout my life
Or thought I did, how wrong I was
We grew up together, did everything together
Maybe it all happened for a reason
To reveal the real face behind the facade
Your smug face
I see every day in the office
A job I got for you,
no atom of remorse
Do you have a heart at all?
How do you feel
marrying your best friend’s fiancé behind her back?
How do you sleep
at night knowing you have hurt another so deeply?
hope you sleep well
I have made peace with myself
Knowing I deserve a lot better than him
It was only a surface wound and
I have the pleasure of watching you
die every day that I live
© Amaka Paul 2016
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Passionate. I like it👍
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Thanks Josey!
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Lot of feeling in your words, beautiful.
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Thank you so much!
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What a terrible friend! I felt the emotions in this poem. The betrayal and disappointment. Very powerful.
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I know right? some friends do have them… thanks for reading, I appreciate your stopping by!
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